I am going to share with you my testimony because God has proven His faithfulness through the trials in my life. I accepted Christ as my Savior at the age of seven. I didn't understand the fullness of His grace, mercy, faithfulness, and love at that time. God let me go through many trials to prove that He is all He says He is.
When I was in middle school, I started being attracted to men. It scared me to death, so I hid it from everyone. By the time I reached high school, I was tired of hiding who I thought I was. As a result, I told everyone how I felt, and I didn't care. I pretty much stopped loving God and stopped all communication with Him because I wanted to live the way I wanted to live and not have to feel guilty.
I had even joined a dating site and got attached to some people, but that only made matters worse. On January 1, 2012, my mom caught me and saw what I was doing. I was so mad at God and wanted nothing to do with Him; my heart was hard like a rock.
My youth pastor helped get me into a counseling program. It was a miracle that I even got into counseling as quick as I did because the counselor had a very full schedule. For a while, I was only going through the motions. Then the counselor told me, "It is not a sin to be attracted to men. There's no way you can control that, just like I can't control that I'm attracted to women. It is a sin when you act upon it." That was eye-opening.
Homosexuality is just like any other sexual sin, like pornography for example. Some people are more susceptible to it than others, but we all have to resist the temptation.
It wasn't until around late February that my heart began to soften. God used my piano teacher to take the scales off of my eyes. She told me with love that I had to wake up and repent of my sins. That day I broke down crying and rededicated my life to the Lord.
Since then, I have failed multiple times. Even to this day I still struggle with homosexuality, but that's not who I am. I refuse to allow it to control me. I desire for God to fully take this burden away, but I think He's using it to keep me humble just like Paul's thorn in the flesh. I desire to please God in everything that I do. He has proven His faithfulness, love, grace, and mercy through this trial in my life.
—Cameron
Cameron loves God, his family, and music. He lives in Kentucky and enjoys Show Choir, band, and playing the piano.
