I know that God has always been helping me, which is a good thing, but still I struggle with some problems which make me far from God. I know that God doesn't count how many good or bad things I do, but He always sees how strong my faith is in Him.
I am a young girl, and to be honest I have had heaps of boyfriends because every time someone asks me out, I think, "Maybe God has sent him for me, so should I go for it." I feel bad. These days, I feel I've gone so far from God. I want to come close to Him, but I just can't. I don't know why. Maybe I am too busy using FB, music, dance... Even I know my weakness, but I still don't know what to do.
When I was in my home country, there used to be church every Sunday, and everyone used to talk in heavenly languages, and I used to copy them. But now I realize that it's not a good thing for me. Yet somehow I used to feel God but not now, and it makes me want to cry. Even when I was small, I always used to cry and ask God to talk to me or let me feel His love.
There is this guy who I love, but I'm not sure if he is from God or not. We went out 5 or 6 times, but all he does is break-up and say sorry again. Next time, when he again asks me out, I just don't know if I can say no to him. In the moment, I suddenly feel so happy with him. It's crazy, like laughing for no reason. We are not together now, but I still pray to God, "Please bring some love between us." I am still waiting for that moment when he comes back to me.
I have done so many sins which I can't really say here, but by the grace of the Lord, I am clean. I thank God for His grace. Please pray for me so I can be strong in my faith.
—Ruth - age 17, 12th grade
